Just got back from camp.
not gona talk about it.
well, though, im gona sae bout something else.
anws, dun get e wrong idea.
i enjoyed myself alot.
me and idah, started to miss everyone in e evening ytd.
we can't wait to see em the next dae.
but eventually, the only person who is excited to c us was my sis[fiza]
this totally sucks.alot.
well.cried today.not bcos im too happi to mit em.
its very upsetting and nth can explain this.
you know i cared for you.
i was angry wen you first told me she hurt u alot.
i tried to help.but.you..
you urself should know.
did you even bother to talk to us.
well, why not?
that gurl says, its our fault.
she said we were the ones who left em.
and in the end, why are they, the ones saying sorry to us?
this doesn't make any sense at all.
before you act, think twice kiex?
i thought i was strong, but im not.
i thought i could hold it, but i couldn't.
you said idah changed.cos dulu dier forgiving.
now shes not.tapi fikir betul2 uh.
dier pon ader prasaan sei.
but you should know wad type of persom i am rite.
i know i n idah not that supporting enuf.
we know it.we totally do.
if you really think that we are changing.
why not sae it infront of us?
dammit la!
i hate my life ok.
i know i suck.
everyone out dere.
listen up.
i know you all bloody damn hate me.
so wad.i know wad im doing ok.
i wun hate you for hating me.
i suck.i dun have the powers k.
i think abt others too ok.
i jus cant help ppl who hurts my own fwens.
and i despise ppl who easily fall for the ungreatful ppl.
why did you cry?
urs wasnt as bad as wad we gone thru.
ok?
just leave me alone.
i dun need ur forgiveness.
i will ignore you all for e time being.
i make sure you read this.
